Please Block Me

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Atak Gayi hu 

                                                      


Jab chalte chalte rahe mude 
Jab jugnu muthi khol ude
Jab nayan yeh tode rule sabhi
Aur khulke karle bhool sabhi
Bhool sabhi bhool sabhi

Toh atak gaya hai
Yeh mann atak gaya hai
Kuch chatak gaya hai
Yeh mann atak gaya hai

I know you don't have any feelings for me anymore .
i know you have changed lot 
i know ur priorities are different 
i know ur occupied in work family life ....
i know i don't even come in ur thoughts anymore
i know i don't exist for u anymore 
(laugh and say its all my perception)

In your unsaid words ur silence u said its over 

BUT , I cant Accept it ....
I get desperate every time for you because i think i am addicted to you ...
I understand its my addiction
 I am responsible for it but ,mind knows all still we fall ...
Its hard for me to accept the change in you .
I keep texting you ,contacting you 
I keep disturbing you with my text messages mails ....
keep asking weird questions ...
You keep seeing them and ignoring them ...sometimes i get rains in desert ur reply will come 
mostly they are short and on ur own leisure time jab ke u know how impatient she is ..


I tried to accept all the changes happening between us and keep making myself understand its just a phase it will pass ...all will be ok ...he will keep words .
he wont hurt me 
(as he knows it well i was broken when i meet him no matter what he will not hurt me .... I am only wrong not understanding his situations, give him time ,trust him ,keep faith) 

I keep trying to keep u block ...i do it but in a day unblock you 100 times keep waiting to see you online or keep checking your DP or sometimes i just keep staring the screen ..
But again in few hours or next day or few days i am back to unblocking you begging your time attention bit of care ...saying sorry begging ...
and i get ur cold responses it will hurt me more more anxious ..

So today i am asking you to block me from everywhere number mail etc ...
 So i stop intruding in your personal  life. 
So i stop disturbing you 
So i stop bothering you 

I know i will be in pain for forever or i don't know how long 
but i am sure u can do this ...
( i am not saying it wont hurt you but ur strong )
AND
Help me to break this circle of blocking and unblocking you 
I don't wana keep disturbing your peace of my mind ..


Mere Hisse Mein Tu nahin hai 
Yeh bhi na jaanu kyu nahi hai ,
Itna  hi bas mujhko pata hai 
main tera ghalat tu mera sahi hai 

Bye Take care 
kitni ajeeb baat hai 
ki I love you ko kisi
 ke I dont love you anymore se 
koi farak nahi padta
 

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