Lost

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Today where life is taking me i don't know feeling very different inside me . All the thoughts feelings emotions are mixed up ...may be i am overthinking may be i am protective....may be i am tired of getting hurt ....may be not ready to trust any one actually i am not ready to trust myself again.

I know nothing is gonna stay everything comes in my life is for momentary...they stay and go as per their own convience and i keep waiting for them ...

I am not ok and i am fine to admit i am not ok ...i am low . I don't want to hurt or get hurt either...i know it's all in my head but my doubt are very strong ....

Whenever u want u come and go ...after few days again i will be shattered because agian I will be unwanted in life ...ur ignorance will kill me ...i don't know how to stop u or let go u completely.

What i am fighting is inner me than u ...am i making any sense or i am so vulnerable that my words are lost in a cyclone of emotions.

Na aage ka kuch soch saku

na peeche ka kuch yaad rahe 

Har roz tutkar bikar thi hu

Phir utt kar jud ti hu 

Har baar aapne bharose ko chur hote dekhti hu 

Phir bhi har baar bharosa karti hu
I don't blame you for anything i know i am not worthy of ur love ...

"Woh jud Gaya har tuti hui cheez jodi ja sakti hai " someday it will be true for me too ...


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