Unapologetic

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 Today what i am is completely changed person .....people called me thunder people called me werid...they can call me anything they want but i needed that change I wanted to be vocal about my pain about my choice ....

I don't want to be taken for granted anymore.

I don't want to be someone's second choice .

I don't want to be punching bag of someone.

Yes i have changed myself like the colour of maple tree has changed in autumn...which gives us hope life keep revolving and keep changing still it's breathing and alive .

I want to be more than ok more than flesh more than just a person standing in crowd .

I don't want to carry any old baggages in new me ...

May be the reflection what i see in mirror is completely different from old me but that is life people keep changing themselves...

I was stuck in that zone by ur words ur presence but now i have broke that cage . New me has born don't know how much she can fly but i have given her wings strength courage to do so ....

Yes i don't recognise my reflection in mirror anymore as it's new me ready to give a shot one more fight one more try one more chance to myself.....

Yes i am not sorry anymore for saying i don't wana choose u i wana choose myself...

I am unapologetic for choosing myself...

Ajeeb dastur hai duniya jab tak aap kaam aa rahe ho unki khwaish Puri kar rahe ho ya unki baat man rahe ho tab tak aap sab se aache ho nahi toh sab se bure .....


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