Walking out

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Tenu paake bhi dekh liya, mai tenu kho ke bhi dekh liya.
Tere khwaba vich aai jaa, mai tenu soke bhi dekh liya.
Aankha sukhdi hii na, mai roke bhi dekh liya.
Menu raas na aaya ishq mai tera hoke vi dekh liya.


I am sorry i can't handle things anymore for both of us .I been standing like rock solid for many people in my life . May it be family ,friends known and unknown people.I was expecting you to stand like rock for us but whenever we fought or argued we only drifted apart more and more .
Now we have reached to the point where both of us are standing on two different sides of road and we both can't hear each other and there is lot of smog between us neither we can see each other.

Whenever i came to you with my insecurities issues problems all you did is heard them and ignored them,may be i was cribbing lot maybe you were looking something else in me and all you got is damaged piece .
The damage you have not done but yes couldn't repair them either as you thought so.I don't blame you this one is on me. I am sorry, I burden you with my expectations my desires my needs which was your time .

Kehte hai na "Bin maange moti mile mange mile na bikh" aur aaj kal sab kuch sasta hai waqt ke aalawa.

Let me make it easy for both of us let me set boundary and raise the guard and walk out of your life.Loving you was easy walking away will kill me but i am sorry i need to do this for my mental health for your peace of mind .I can't forgive myself as i am the reason for all the stress in your life .Hoping someday we both will be ok.

I will miss you forever is myth  but yes i wont forget you ever thats for sure unless i get alzheimer's  haha.

Once again we are strangers but with memories

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